savewell: can the universe please just let me take a depression nap in peace now (SICK ♘ thirty-six hours of nonstop grief)
Princess Rosella of Daventry ([personal profile] savewell) wrote 2021-11-14 03:50 am (UTC)

[Ah. Well. That's almost a relief, actually. Now she won't feel nearly so bad about what she's ultimately going to ask him, since it'll be coming on the heels of having to be this honest.]

Because I was alone, and afraid, and exhausted, and all I wanted was just one person to help me. And that's how it goes in the stories. He was a prince and I was in trouble — he should've helped.

He made me feel like I was the one who'd done something wrong. He called me ugly and a peasant, but it felt like he was saying I wasn't...enough, somehow. Not enough of something to be worth helping.

You told me once that I oughtn't compare myself against my brother. The truth is, it's not really him that I compare myself against; he just makes for an easy object to direct it at. Really it's...what I'm supposed to be. What a princess ought to be. That awful frog didn't even think I was worth a kind word after I'd broken his curse and it bothered me because deep down I sometimes feel as though he might have been right.

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