[Ah. Well. That's almost a relief, actually. Now she won't feel nearly so bad about what she's ultimately going to ask him, since it'll be coming on the heels of having to be this honest.]
Because I was alone, and afraid, and exhausted, and all I wanted was just one person to help me. And that's how it goes in the stories. He was a prince and I was in trouble — he should've helped.
He made me feel like I was the one who'd done something wrong. He called me ugly and a peasant, but it felt like he was saying I wasn't...enough, somehow. Not enough of something to be worth helping.
You told me once that I oughtn't compare myself against my brother. The truth is, it's not really him that I compare myself against; he just makes for an easy object to direct it at. Really it's...what I'm supposed to be. What a princess ought to be. That awful frog didn't even think I was worth a kind word after I'd broken his curse and it bothered me because deep down I sometimes feel as though he might have been right.
I see. Well, he was a very clever gnome, rather magical. He's an old friend of my family's, actually, and helped my father become king back when he was still only a knight. So I grew up around him, hearing his stories and all that.
There's one thing that's different between the real gnome and the stories about him, though. He spells his name backwards.
[It's surprising how many people don't realize what it means. Really, he should have known that someone as clever as Rosella would figure it out eventually.]
I know. You answered to Adrian in that dream we had. When I mistook you for my brother, Alexander.
Please don't be upset. I doubt anyone else will have worked it out, unless you've been going around telling them stories and introducing them to your dream parents like you have with me.
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There's quite a lot about you that's special that way, isn't there?
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Whatever do you mean?
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Ask me something first. Something terribly invasive or uncomfortable. Don't think twice about being rude, just — ask something of me.
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Tell me why that prince bothered you so much. Really why.
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Because I was alone, and afraid, and exhausted, and all I wanted was just one person to help me. And that's how it goes in the stories. He was a prince and I was in trouble — he should've helped.
He made me feel like I was the one who'd done something wrong. He called me ugly and a peasant, but it felt like he was saying I wasn't...enough, somehow. Not enough of something to be worth helping.
You told me once that I oughtn't compare myself against my brother. The truth is, it's not really him that I compare myself against; he just makes for an easy object to direct it at. Really it's...what I'm supposed to be. What a princess ought to be. That awful frog didn't even think I was worth a kind word after I'd broken his curse and it bothered me because deep down I sometimes feel as though he might have been right.
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Thank you for sharing. ...Whatever you have to ask, I will answer.
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There's one thing that's different between the real gnome and the stories about him, though. He spells his name backwards.
And I think you do, too. Don't you?
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It's not technically my name.
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Please don't be upset. I doubt anyone else will have worked it out, unless you've been going around telling them stories and introducing them to your dream parents like you have with me.
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How shall I put this
I was concerned what you might think of me if you knew who I was. What I was, specifically.
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